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| OMGSH i bought a car, i'll take picture of it after we get it home tonight and post it for yall... i likes it a lot, even tho it's like a century old it still looks good and runs well... so YES.
So i'm moved out. the only bad thing so far is that the stupid beep beep pothead plumber didn't fix my pipes correctly evidently, cause my room is now flooded. o well the carpet is pulled back and drying.... BLEH.
Love you guys, ttyl
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| Yuppers. How's life in the rest of the world? I'm purdy
much crazy right now, lotsa crap going on. desperatly STILL
searching for cars, i know i know i need to stop being so picky, cause
i really can't afford it, money OR time wise, lol. the whole job
search is going ok, got some idea's. I spent hours the other day
planning out exactly how much i actuallly needed to exist each month,
how much i'd make for such and such an hour, how many days a week, all
that fun stuff. I really hope i can do all this and still have a
satisfactory savings account.
K so my friend came over last night and he made me watch
Saw 2 with him... *shivers* okay for those of you who don't know me
very well, that's not my kinda movie! the crazy, scary thing is that as
much as it scared me, i kinda liked it... I always thought there was no
point to the stupid Saw movies, like all blood and gore for no reason,
but there was actaully a moral. The gory way to go about teaching us
something, but hey. anyways, i'm alone in a big house and kinda
freaked that someone's gonna pop out and kidnap me and take me to one
of Jigsaw's torture rooms.... Eeeeeeeeek
Yeah ok wull i love you guys, hopefully once i get settled
and things start calming down a bit i'll have more time to... yeah have
a life. so gimme a call in about a month lol. jk, whatevuh,
bye-bye
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| Wowza a lot's happened... I'm moving out, which i'm totally excited about. i'll be living with my grandmother for a lil while until i find another room mate... $200 rent plus is ouch compared to free, but it's outta my house, so it's all good... once i get a new job lol. that's another thing... i need to go on a job search.
Buyin a car sometime this month- FINALLY. yes i know so many of you were thinking that.
So maybe a few things are closer to clicking than they have been for a very long time. I'm not feeling quite as restless, probly cause i know a change is finally in sight. Pray for guidance, pleases.... Oh yes and thanks to all my many peeps who recommended Death Cab to me... i love them! Love you guys, bye-bye
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| It's getting better. i think. at the same time, all i can think is that i'm sad and can't wait for this to dissipate. i love you guys, keep smiles and hope... this is a great song
I wanted you to know I love the way you laugh
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain away
I keep your photograph and I know it serves me well
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel like I am strong enough
'Cause I'm broken when I'm lonesome
And I don't feel right when you're gone away
You've gone away, you don't feel me here, anymore
The worst is over now and we can breathe again
I wanna hold you high, you steal my pain away
There's so much left to learn, and no one left to fight
I wanna hold you high and steal your pain...
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| I am the mess you chose,
The closet you cannot close,
The devil in you i suppose,
Cause the wounds never heal.
"A house divided against itself cannot stand." Someone brought this up to me and it's more true for my house than I ever realized... a large part of it is my fault. But it is every single member moving in their own direction and not truly caring for anyone but themselves. It is ridiculous, we are not a family, there is no love, we are at war every day. I am miserable. It's not getting any better, i wish i had a place to go, it would solve so many problems... not just my problems.
"I swear i'm not the devil, though you think i am. I swear i'm not the devil..."
I don't know what to do, and recent experience has shown me that I have no one i can trust to spill my heart to. And trusting God is very difficult for me right now... please pray.
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